i should have been writing all along

as it was happening i knew that i needed to be writing it down

all the epiphanies

all the experiences

as a teacher

as a caregiver for chldren

as someone that interacted with and worked side by side with parents every single day

but i was so tired

emotionally

physically

i had to have armour on because being a teacher in the NYC public schools is so tough

i have years of experiences and lessons learned

and yet i am still healing

still repairing from the trauma

perhaps if i had gone in with armour i would have been better off? but then again that sensitivity is what made/makes me who i am.